Oh lord the things I've seen.

Contrary to the title of this post, this is not about the various things I've seen. I've seen nothing. I need to get a new job. There was a job fair recently, and a few days before it I kept telling myself "I am going to go this job fair. I am going to go to it so fucking hard." Man, I was ready to job the hell out of the fair. I was going to job it so hard it'd have to fire its employees as a way to simulate ejaculation... Um, well, anyways, I was really dead set to going. I was so dead set on going, that not only did I not go, but I also saw Speed Racer. For the fourth time. That is an extremely mind blowing movie. Makes me feel happy to be alive.

So, I've been trying to get back on my writing foot. I got some really good ideas, and I mean good, totally unique ideas. I just am too lazy to write them. Its a shame, considering I'm the guy who is trying to become Mr. Movie Maker Man. On one hand, I'm slightly not worried, because I'm 20. Lots of time left. I am very worried, however, because I refuse to go to film school. Or, my local uni's film program. I have a friend who goes and from what he tells me its a crock of shit. Plus, I never believed in film school in the first place. But this means I need to work twice as hard if I want things to get things moving for me. I know I got my friend in the class, but I can't count on him to start my career, even though we work together on a lot of stuff. I would not mind if he got a job and brought me with him, and then from there we created our thing, but I don't want him or anyone else to see me as a tag-a-long. I'm a dude with dreams, and I need to work damn hard to make it true. Its terrible because I know that I am incredibly talented and good with this type of stuff. I really do not want this to seem as if I'm big headed, but I know from the bottom of my heart that I can do this. I just need to get over this hump.

I've been trying to make music for my fake band, but I am too fake lazy. Fuck.